Long story short, I’ve realized I cannot disciple someone to follow Jesus with all their heart and soul when I myself am not doing the same.
For a while now I’ve been wanting to recommit my life. I feel that with school and work I have forgotten everything I learned while becoming a Christian.
I have forgotten that the grace I bathe in every morning wasn’t free. It came with a cost. Jesus on the cross, bearing my sins. All of them. Every lie. Every lustful moment. Every bit of gossip. My sin held him to that cross.
I have forgotten that God doesn’t need me.
I am insignificant. A speck of dust in the wind in the middle of a bazillion dust storms.
He gains nothing from me.
It is I who gain everything.
I have forgotten that it is not for God’s benefit that I have this little umph I call faith. I can do nothing for God, I am not enough. It is only through Jesus that God can even bear to look at me.
So this is me, recommitting my life.
This world has nothing for me
I will follow You